Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Therapeutic blogging

Tomorrow is our 20 month anniversary of being in IBESR. Which is a fancy name for child social services in Haiti. They have recognized us as, not only acceptable adoptive parents, but they've even matched us with our son! Yup, you read that correctly...we were matched in June of this year (2017). 

The hope of a September referral has long been gone, but I can't help but hope for a Christmas miracle. It's the Pollyanna side of me I guess. Nick is not as optimistic as I am. He is predicting at least a few more months of waiting...waiting for the one of the best phone calls I'll ever get. "Hi Tara, it's Renae. I have your official referral letter. You are now able to meet your son." Oh my goodness!!!! I cannot wait for those words to come out of her mouth. Will she call tomorrow on our 20 month anniversary? Only God knows. 

Today is just an emotional day...Nick and I just closed on our new home in Ohio. I am excited and sad all at the same time. Leaving my family here in Colorado will not be easy, but starting a new chapter in our life in Ohio is exactly what our family needs and I am looking forward to this new journey. 

My hope and prayer today is that if another Christmas passes without our referral that I will press into the Lord and all His promises. That I will not grow weary, but trust in the sovereignty of the Lord. 

My other prayer is for our son. I pray that this Christmas he knows that his heavenly Father loves him passionately and unconditionally. I pray that he has the best Christmas that he's ever had knowing that soon he'll be with his forever family. I pray that God will move mountains and that the people in charge in Haiti will be motivated to do what they need to do to get children home. I pray for the spiritual warfare that is ever so present here in the US and in Haiti. That God almighty will prevail and that God alone gets the victory over the hearts and minds of the children stuck in a broken system and for the adults who are over them. 

Thank you so much to those of you who are praying with us. Nick and I are so grateful for our brothers and sisters in Christ.

Merry Christmas to you all and Happy New year!

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

1,016 days of waiting so far

                                                                                      Today is Nov 1, 2017.

We have been in IBESR for 18 months and 12 days.
However, we decided to adopt 1,016 days ago.

I haven't updated this blog since August and I honestly thought my next blog would be about 
our referral. 

It's not.😢

However, a lot has transpired since August so today I'll just catch everyone up on the 
Olson family drama. 

We have decided it was time to move our family back to Ohio. Without over explaining it; we feel the Lord is leading us back to where we started.  We are extremely excited and sad all at the same time. We are following in faith. We cannot not physically see the Lord, but our faith is 20/20! We can follow that in confidence anywhere.

Many of you are wondering how this affects our adoption. Nothing major changes. Whew....We'll have to update our Home Study once we are settled in, but other than that, our job now is to just keep waiting.

Here's the recap of what's going on; unfortunately it hasn't changed much since this summer.

  • We were told in May to pay our referral fee and that we'd more than likely get our official referral letter by September. That means the matching committee in Haiti is actively searching for us a child, but they want four months to get everything in order. 
  • In June we got a call telling us that they found our son! Our case worker told us it was like taking a pregnancy test. All we know is that he has been found, but there is no information yet about him.
  • In July we were told our match was approved! We were also told that there still was not an official referral letter. (Meaning, we have ZERO information about him and we've not been invited yet to go on our bonding trip.)
That's about it. See, not much to report. We are still waiting for our little guy. Waiting for the call that our referral letter is ready. 

For now, here's what we're doing. Praying that he is safe, healthy and happy. Praying that the Lord brings him a peace in his heart and that he feels loved where ever he is.

We are praying for our family here as we transition to a new phase in life. 
God's timing is perfect and He knew that to get in a referral in September would have 
been difficult. 

My selfish prayer is that we'll get our referral in December when I am with all my family just before we move. 
How cool would that be?!?! It would truly be the best present ever! 

However, I'm sharing these quotes because I know God's in control and He has already worked thing out for our good!!

Thank you so much for all the love and support you've shown us over the past 1,016 days. We are very grateful for the village the Lord has given us. I promise to update as soon as we hear about our referral!

Blessings to you all!

Thursday, August 17, 2017

Aug 17, 2017 update

I'm not even sure how to start this post. So many emotions today. One one hand I'm feeling discouraged and the other hand I'm jumping for joy! AHH! This is so hard.

I guess I'll start with the discouraging news. Everyone likes to get that over with first anyway, right?

So there is a strike going on in Haiti. It's been going on for a while. This means important paperwork isn't being completed and those of us who are anxiously waiting to hear news will most likely not hear anything until things in Haiti go back to normal. When will it go back to normal? Only God knows! I'd go into more details, but I am purposefully not researching this more as it it not good for my tender heart. If you'd like more info on the strike click here https://www.haitilibre.com/en/news-21718-haiti-news-zapping.html)

Naturally, this is hard news for every family trying to get through this process, but for us it's hard news because we paid our referral fee back in May. We were told we'd most likely get our referral by September and now we are not so sure that will happen. I'm trusting in God's timing though! He knows what's best and we have to wait on Him. I have NO doubt in my mind that God "can" move mountains I just struggle with the "when" He'll move it. 🌄

For now, I will continue to pray for him and love him from afar. 💙


OK time to share the GREAT news!! Today we received and email from the JSC Foundation. They just awarded us a $7,000 grant! Holy Smokes! That's our biggest grant we've received. Praise the Lord!

I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that the Lord is working on our behalf. I have been telling Nick every day for the past 2 weeks that I feel like God is up to something, I just don't know exactly what it is.
Let me try to explain. First of all, I picked up a babysitting job to help us make some more money for our growing family. I found out Sunday that it will end in September. 😬 I was worried, but at the same time I felt a total peace. Secondly, I am stepping down from my job as the Children's Director at the church. This one is a tough one, but again I have a total peace about it. I am not sure why I have peace...I should be completely freaking out! It's a huge chuck of money that we are used to getting that will all be going away very soon. BUT, the goal is to get me out of so many responsibilities so that I can just focus on being a mom. I also need to be ready at a moments notice to go on our socialization trip for 15 days. Both of which would be extremely difficult if I was still working 2 jobs. Lastly, our wonderful kids seem to be really thriving right now. Yes, I know Ireland broke her leg this summer badly, but it has really helped shape her into an even more beautiful, thoughtful person than before. Cadance has all the sudden grown up into what looks like a young woman! 😩 Not sure how that happened, but she just grows more and more mature and beautiful with each passing day. And Christian! Well, if you knew Christian a year ago you'd understand that he is a totally different kid. He went from a constant state of worry and sickness (asthma) to this vibrant, confident & healthy child! 🙌😀 He started Middle school today and he was ready to take on the world! I am so proud to be their mom and I am looking forward to making some great memories with them this year.

So here we are, waiting on bated breath for the call from Renae that we have our referral letter and we can go meet our son. I know it would take a miracle right now for that to happen... It's a good thing I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES! 

Today, I will try to balance my emotions of sadness (that another day has gone by with no news of sweet boy) and I will rejoice in the fact that God is moving. He and He alone is the reason that we have received another grant. He is doing exactly what He promised us He would do. Thank you LORD! He has proven to us again that He has got this!

For my future son:

Today at 1:32 pm Aug. 17, 2017, I sit at the kitchen table thinking about you. Wondering who you are, and what you're up to? I pray for you ALL the time. I cannot wait for the day that I get to hold you in my arms and tell you how much I love you. I pray Jesus wraps you up in peace and love today. I pray that you are safe and warm and that someone will show you love today. Please know that we all long for the day you're home forever. 

Praise report~ 

  1.  $7k Grant!
  2. That God continues to show Himself to us through this hard process!

Prayer request~ 

  1. For our referral letter to come by September
  2. For the strike to end
  3. For us to raise the final cost of our adoption
  4. For all of the families that have been waiting for so long to bring their child home. 😞

Saturday, June 17, 2017

Well that was a surprise!

June 16, 2017 started out like most busy summer days do. Nick and I were going to spend our entire day trying to entertain our kids, get the dogs to the groomers and paint the entire basement! I'll just get to the surprise part...I was driving alone to go pick up the dogs and I was blasting Lauren Daigles' I will Trust in You song, because it's on KLove about 100 times in a hour. It's ok though cuz I love that song. Anyway, my phone rang and I saw that it was from Nightlight. I was expecting the call to be from Emily since we owe $2,800 for a post adoption report. ugh...Well, to my surprise it was Renae, our caseworker! She started out by saying that she did not have our referral letter :( BUT Lahomy, one of the IBESR rep's told her that they found a match for our family!!! AHH!! I instantly burst into tears. I was not expecting this kind of new since not even a month a go we were told not to expect much until September!
There are no details yet, Renae explained like being pregnant. Renae is like the pregnancy test; for now. Later she'll be an ultra sound; referral letter and lastly, she be the mid-wife; when we finally bring our little man home. So for now, I will trust that Lord is moving mountains! He is preparing our hearts and our future sons heart. I CANNOT wait to see his sweet little face, know his name, his age...but for now I know he's there.

I am so thankful that the Lord hears our cry! Today my tears are happy ones, they are filled with hope and anticipation.

Renae told us to be praying for 2 specific things:

1. Our dossier is missing our Immigration Approval (it's expired and our officer is working on it)
2. For our son dossier to be neat and tidy and that there is no need to fix or update it.

Once both of these 2 things are in order we'll get our official referral letter!!

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Good news and not so good, but not bad news either day

Well, good news; not so good, but not bad news either day....

Here is the update from our agency regarding all that we've got going on right now.

GOOD NEWS! Our referral fee is paid. It was wired to Haiti yesterday 5/22/17 :) We are beyond excited that we have made some forward progress. So now we wait again. How long do we wait.....

Not so good, but not bad news either! We have not not been matched yet. However, the referral fee we sent was to put us in queue. So we know that they are working on our case and looking for our son. How long does that take? 4 months, maybe longer.

I've a bit of a Pollyanna. I think that's a good thing. Here's show I see it. I've been waiting officially for 13 months to hear this news. I can certainly wait 4 months for even better news. The other silver lining is that it's almost summer! Tomorrow is the last day of school and we all know how fast summer goes. Right?!?! The last ray of sunshine is that it will be fall when we get our referral so traveling will be much easier on our family. ~not that we wouldn't have made it work~

OK, so now what? I will praise the Lord! God is moving mountains just like I asked. How and when He does it is not up to me. I trust in God's perfect timing and I know that He holds the future.

I came across this verse. It's convicting and encouraging at the same time.

John 5:3 "In these lay a great multitude of sick people, blind, lame paralyzed, waiting for the moving of the water." 

Lord Jesus help me to remember all those who are waiting on You. So many hurting people, people who desperately need the waters to move. Jesus I pray for those today who need You; who need a miracle. I pray that You comfort and protect our son in Haiti and for all the families who are in the waiting. Lord, I know that's where You are. You know us, You see us and You love us. 
Move the waters Jesus, move the waters!

Take Couragehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r49V9QcYheQ

Friday, May 19, 2017

Memorable May

So excited! 
I'm not even sure how to start this post. I guess it will just be super raw. So May 17, 2017 around 4 pm our rep from our agency called and emailed to let us know that our 'lil guys information is literally just waiting on the Directress desk to be signed and copied. Once that happens we will get our request for our referral money! AHHH!!!
Usually, in about 6 weeks after they get their money you get your referral! OH, my heart! I cannot wait to see his sweet little face. 
Praying she's motivated today to sign our paper work and ask for our referral fee!! 

Side note***it snowed**May 17-19, 2017 and there's snow on the ground! Very Memorable MAY for sure!! 

Thank you Lord!

Friday, April 21, 2017

Officially 1 year

I guess you could call this one of many therapy posts. I feel like I have NO right to be whiny, after all, so many people have waited years longer than us. Yes, YEARS! I'm just feeling frustrated and a bit sad that this journey we started on Jan 20, 2015 has taken so long with really no end in sight. My head knows that nothing last forever, but my heart is crying out in desperation for movement. I just want to meet my son! I think I'm more bothered by it because I know that there is a prospective match for us and I haven't heard anything about it. I wonder every day if someone has looked into it or if the file sits there unattended to. I also feel guilty for being so impatient because many waiting families don't have any children at all. At least I do hear, "mommy". I am SO grateful for that. Speaking of my kids, they're great. They ask about their future brother a lot. They know that "one day" we'll all be together. For now, we all just pray. We pray that our "one day" is soon. I can safely say that my kids have learned a lot through the waiting. Especially, that nothing comes easy. Things of the Lord sometimes takes a great deal of time. If you don't believe me pick just about any story in the Old Testament :)

Anyway, here's where we stand today. It's 4-21-17, we were entered into IBESR on 4-20-16 so one year later we are still waiting to be matched (referral) and now some of paper work is expiring. We are almost finished with our Home Study update. We still have more reading to do, CPR training (Tara) and a social worker visit. Our USCIS fingerprints expired as well, but that is done now too! So in less than a month we'll be all caught up again. :)

I applied for a grant through Kaitlyn's Fund back in Feb. Praying we hear something from them soon. I plan on applying for more once we get past the Home Study update.

We needed $7,000 for the next phase which is the REFERRAL phase. And by God's grace and mercy we've been able to raise it!! Thank you Lord!!

We'll need another $7,000 for the court phase which will happen after our 2 week socialization trip. Plus our travel fee's. I have no doubt that God will provide. He has been so faithful to us during this time. His provisions are no surprise to us, we are just grateful beyond belief for them.

My prayer today is that we get the call from Renae telling us it time to pay for the referral and also for my other friends that are adopting: Shannon, Brianne, Kyla and Karen. We are all in similar stages.

If you're reading this would stop for just a minute and pray that with me? Thanks so much. :)

How cool would it be if my next post was about our Referral!?!?! God can, and I know He will.